David McCormick

I have always been a fan of Hollywood kind of stuff. I have loved watching awards shows since I was a kid and have always imagined what it would be like to be seated in that giant room; slick hair and fancy clothes, laughing casually at all the jokes and nonchalantly mingling with the stars. So with a scaled down feeling of Christmas morning, we sat down to watch the beloved Oscars. I pretended to know about all the movies and even rambled off a 3 minute discourse about the origins of opera, except our Guatemalan teenager had actually asked how OPRAH got her start. But as the show went on I began to feel differently about it all. Far from feeling excited, I noticed I was starting to feel a little sad. Some of the cast from The Greatest Showman sang "This Is Me" and it was hard not to get emotionally stirred as the performers emphatically raised their hands and sung with all their hearts to the beat of their own drum. Yet, I started seeing clearly through the smoke and realize...

I am a fan of self-care, self examination and being self aware. I have seen the devastating consequences of people that are completely disconnected from themselves and utterly incapable of recognizing their own need to evaluate and take steps towards health. But I am sure you noticed a recurring theme in there that may raise some red flags. There is wisdom in all of this and I believe it with all my heart. But then I read this quote. "For every look at yourself, take ten looks at Christ." - Adelaide Proctor My constant attempts to go deeper into myself to find out what was wrong and to truly confront the deep issues in my heart seem wise and mature but I realize that for every look at Christ there have been hundreds of looks into myself. My genuine desire to "work through" stuff and arrive at a more stable place in life to THEN be able to encounter God on a deeper level. But there has been no freedom in and of myself. Me without Christ is a cavernous pit...